i can’t ever
understand why tons of waters were dropped from the undeniably charming grey sky, and after the beauty happened, the stupid rainbow appeared and hurted my boring eyes.
well people think that i’m out of my mind, but i just didnt understand, should i care? should i care of what people think of me? should i take those as an annoying pimple in my beautiful life? should i do what people expect me to? should i be whatever they want me to? should i put up with what i cant bear at all? and if so, please, dear, my dearest god take me away.
i admit that i’m not so smart, or beautiful, or talented, or witty, well call me a looney because that’s just who i am. i cant deny people who tell me slow, or people who laugh at me, well life is hard and i perfectly understand that these people need more to laugh at, and that’s just my luck, also cant deny that i laugh at people, too.
when there is a down there is also an up. some people thought that i am so admirable (haha) that they happily take me to be their friend or, relative. i’m nothing but pleased to hear that, but, this is more to a warning than to an announcement, i’m not that good, i’m just no good for you, at all, seriously. life is easy to predict but then again, this is more of a warning than an advice, dont judge a book by it’s cover! what you think i’m simply not might be what i simply am.
I might look slightly different, then who cares?
the only thing people must consider now is, when I am ugly or freak or something and they feel that my existence being so annoying to them, it is actually their own problem and exactly not mine, because the ones who are seeing me all the time wouldn’t be me, would it? well, that could be me if i mirror, like, the whole time. whatev.
I wrote this when the rain poured heavily noisy and was so sick of life, my life in particular. my life, because my life is everything but a single word, beautiful.
saya ini sok pake bhs ing yak. biarlah biar pada tidak tahu maksudnya,
salam hormat. salam stres. besok udah sekolah lagi.